I'mma do the things i wanna do

I don't particularly feel like posting a legitimate blog post tonight so i'll just be all thankful.





1)rockband
2)things to look forward to
3)options
4)vacation
5)going out to dinner with my love =)

Christmas!

As expected, it's been a beautiful two days of christmas celebration. it's funny how as you get older, your outlook changes slightly every year. I wish i could say that the childlike wonder and innocence is still there but of course, as a product of the "teen years" it has dimmed slightly. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love Christmas and will continue to my whole life. But every year, your eyes open a little more. there are more distractions and thoughts buzzing inside of your head and, for me, i sometimes find it hard to be in the moment. nevertheless, i will always maintain the wonder and beauty of christmas in my heart. because what's life without christmas?

On christmas eve, we went down to my aunt and uncle's house in north caldwell NJ, which is always a great time. their house is beautiful, the food is good and, of course, you're around family. unfortunately, it was raining the whole trip down, which washed away most of the snow...it would have been beautiful to have fresh snow on the ground christmas morning. Since we're being thankful this season (really, it should be all the time) i'd like to express my thanks for my siblings. we argue. a lot. but we're also each other's lifelines, best friends and party buddies. if all else fails and we know no one at a party (which wasnt the case for this party), we stay close to each other and have fun amongst ourselves. we were taking crazy pictures and eating a lot and playing christmas trivia games with my crazy godmother/aunt. on the way home, we were getting tired. but midnight mass still loomed ahead of us. i absolutely love midnight mass. it is by far the most beautiful part about christmas, for me. because the church is silent, softly lighted, the altar is decorated with vibrant poinsettas. there aren't the distractions of gifts or secular things. father bob, our new priest, performed his first midnight mass and he did so well. getting home at 1:00 in the morning has become a christmas tradition. the upside is that it forces us to go right to bed so that santa can come ;)

christmas morning dawned 40 degrees and sunny. blech. but there was still a tiny bit of snow on the ground and the sky was a beautiful blue. so i couldn't complain. my brother woke me up, like always, but this year was frustrating because my mom chose to sing at the 8 am mass, so we, being good and patient children, waited until she got home to open presents (she likes to be there to see what "santa" brought) so the three of us partied in mariel's room until mom came home. as soon as she walked in, we sprinted downstairs. and santa treated us very very well. the beauty of christmas morning never looses it's spark for me. the lighted tree, the warm fireplace, the sun shining in the windows and the brightly colored wrapping paper. the material aspect is obviously not the most important, so i wont list what i received. lets just say we were all very happy =)

as also is tradtion, my grandparents and my aunt and uncle come to our house for christmas day. so we spent the beginning of the day preparing and cleaning. and once everyone showed up, the house looked beautiful, we had christmas music playing and the food was all set up. i absolutely love spending time with my family. we have so much fun together. of course, there were more presents ;) overall, the day was beautiful and i think we kept the christmas spirit very much alive. i love this post-celebration feeling of satisfaction.


my thankfulness list is extremely long, but i'll keep it to 5.

1) spending time with family
2) being happy
3) our cozy home
4) having the rest of the vacation to enjoy
5) the spirit of christmas

affirmative. i poked one. it was dead

1)snow days
2)supportive best friends
3)flight of the conchords on DVD
4)baking christmas cookies
5)snow day



thank you!

beautiful.

now THAT'S dedication <3333

here comes the luck of the draw!

i'm blogging now even though i'm not finished with what i have to do because..well, i feel like it. weather.gov has been checked so frequently by every student that i'm surprised it hasn't overloaded. just like everyone else, i would love a snow day. but, as usual, i'm setting myself up for a let down.


1) chai tea
2) slipper socks
3) phone coversations
4) expressing a thought
5) 8th period lessons

some joker put my smile on upside down

i feel rather accomplished, in spite of my breakdown. i was able to do the french homework, write a ballad, work on christmas presents, work on my portrait, update my ipod and (in a few minutes) study for math. i flexed my creative muscle quite a bit today, which i'm happy about. it's so stress relieving to express yourself through art or sometimes, a suicidal ballad =)
this is the home stretch guys!! one week, give or take two days (which hopefully will be stress free) until christmas break!!! i know i'm excited. since i'm clearly procrastinating, i'm going to leave you with a list. it's a nice close.



1) new music (the rumble strips)
2) mariel getting into college. congrats sis!
3) our decorated christmas tree =)
4) being productive
5) teachers postponing tests

still sick =(

i apologize, i will make up for my pitiful posts tomorrow


1) connecting with family
2) advent calendars
3) friends who stop by to check up on you =))
4) thinking its sunday when its really saturday
5) flirting ;)




good night!!

wanna know why i carry a knife?

this'll be a quickie cause its very late (in case the time thing isnt working, its 11:07)





1)SNOW DAYS
2)my sister
3)good morals
4)the dark knight
5)shopping

it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

I'm bracing myself for a disappointment. meaning either a two hour delay or a full day of school. that's what i'm thinking. cause right now its just plain raining. but im sick of talking about the weather. so i still have math to do. i've been slacking a little bit in terms of homework. and i'm kinda loaded for the next week.





1) being able to help friends
2) new, good music
3) fleece blankets
4) packages
5) my cell phone

you refuse to believe

if you haven't noticed i name my posts after the song i'm listening to at the time.

i decided to, for today, add a list of things i'm looking forward to. it'll help me get through the coming days



1) going to sleep
2) hanging out with becky on friday
3) getting a christmas tree on saturday
4) going christmas shopping
5) CHRISTMAS!!! obviously
6) kerianne and meghan's sweet 16

ughhhhh part two

as christmas is approaching, school is getting harder and harder to deal with. i like to call it the see-saw effect. don't even talk to me about the weather. it's sickening. plus, i didn't get the math WHATSOEVER, a nice cherry topping to the failure of a quiz i took today. I really dislike not understanding the concepts. it makes me feel like i wasn't paying attention. but i was, she just didn't teach it. as usual. also, i'm getting sick and i still haven't come to terms with the fact that i'm a massive chunk. so this will be a pretty scruffy list.



1) Taylor Swift
2) chapstick
3) study hall
4) the fact that we got the Dark Knight from netflix
5) a light homework load

ughhhhh

yeah so not everyone is keeping up with their daily posts! not that i have nothing else to do and i do this purely for enjoyment, but once i commit to something like this, i have to do it every day haha

i have SUCH a massive headache and tonight has been a really bad homework night. i didn't finish the last math problem, i can't finish the chem lab cause im missing my periodic table, i'm planning to copy the french from someone, and i need to transfer my reading journal into my actual journal. stupendous! i'm not dropping the ball or anything...

I can't keep track of everything i have to do!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrr



1) Advil
2) peanut butter and apples
3) Jess <33
4) hot showers
5) Scrubs

i need a snow day!

since i didn't leave you with a list, i'll give you one now



1) extended deadlines
2) E! news
3) sweatshirts
4) doughnuts
5) double-spacing



i REALLY want/need a snow day!!!!!

blah blah blah

hi everyone. this isn'y my official daily post, meaning you can expect one later, but i need to get out what's been festering inside me for a good portion of the day. i'd first like to apologize for my little meltdown today, cause that's all it was. i really try to avoid making a scene like that. I'm not completely uptight. i can handle a bad grade every once in a while. but i have a hard time handling a bad grade after i studied and stayed after, which was the case with this chem quiz. not to mention, i have a slight history of less than admirable grades in that particular class. i know i'm not dumb. but i have to say, the more logical subjects (i.e. math, chemistry) don't sit well with my brain. precisely why i am going into the english field. the quiz got me but also, the fates of the universe (even though i fought adamently against the existence of such powers while in english) caused me to forgot how to do the last question on the math quiz. which just reinforced this intellectual inadequacy in my mind. thanks to my great friends, (jess, kerianne, cristina and christian <33) i'm ok =)

here comes the bride...

the elusive christa shows her face!! congratulations guys =))


alicia is really cool

Brrrr!!

it's so cold and windy!! perfect winter weather =) i just wish there was snow. we had some today and it was beautiful but it was gone by the morning. Ok i want to tell you about my favorite couple. they're an elderly couple that go to my church. I don't know their names, so lets call them Margaret and Earl. They attend the 10:30 mass every sunday and they're absolutely adorable. The woman is tall and thin and she wears long coats. she always wears a tweed bucket hat and she makes herself up so nicely. she has beautiful cheekbones and bright blue eyes. she must have been gorgeous when she was young. Her husband, earl, is the sweetest thing. he is also tall, taller than her, and has wispy white hair. he wears glasses and walks extremely slowly, shuffling along in his orthopedic shoes. he has this look on his face of frustration, as if he's doing something wrong, but he can't figure out what it is. They sometimes hold hands while they're sitting in the pew, his arthritic hands entwined in her small, veiny hands. they're very quiet. I love to create histories for people I see that I connect with. I like to think that Margaret and Earl met when they were young, maybe over the summer. He thought she was so beautiful and it was total puppy love. They were together for their last two years of high school, but they broke up when they both went away to college. maybe he was in the army. they met up years later, and the love was still there, strong as ever. so they got married. they never had any children, all they needed was each other. and now they live in a small house and she takes care of him and never gets impatient, no matter how slow he walks. that's my story for them =)

in other news, i realized on friday that i forgot to bring home my things for french (i have a test tomorrow) but i figured at that point that i could skip gym and study then. but today i realized that i forgot my global textbook, so i'll have to skip gym to do my global. basically, i needed to study. so i went over to cristina's and we kind of studied...like we ate pizza, watched CSI and stalked people on facebook. i'm going to fail.

i have to work on my portrait now cause it's due friday and i still have ALL my hair to do. but i'll listen to christmas music while i'm doing it.



1) elderly couples
2) cozy sweaters
3) wind
4) my kitties
5) snow

shush girl, shut your lips, do the hellen keller and talk with your hips

hey guys! my internet is down on my computer, so i'm using my dad's. which translates into fun typing!i had a wonderfully productive day today, mostly centered around christmas. but first, last night. i had an amazing time with kerianne and potash. we went to fratello's which looked so spectacular, all decked out for christmas. obviously, we had some delicious food, juicy conversation and sweet eye candy (not as sweet as johnny, but it was an adequate fill in). and then we walked to the railroad green, which was all lit up, and sat in the cold like a couple...well, a threesome, if you wanna get technical. and i love them. a lot. now today, i woke up, cleaned my room, ate a bowl of smart start =)) and took a shower. then meghan came to pick me up at like 12 and me, her, her mom, pat and her grandma went to the middle school craft fair. i had never been. everything was so christmas-y! it put me in such a good mood. we left around 2:30 and went back to her house to work on a global project on the potato famine. it was soo difficult to get it right! but it's pretty much finished. i just have to write a poem. but the past two days have been great cause i love my friends! i just miss my jess =( <33 i just got finished decorating my room for christmas WHILE listening to christmas music. it was so perfect. and now i'm excited for christmas. my brother made really delicious looking brownies and it's almost dinner time. so i'm gonna leave you with a much too short thankfulness list.


1) 3OH!3- a band that my sister and i discovered for ourselves today
2) craig wachsman, for helping us through our project
3) oranges
4) snow in the forecast
5) all things christmas

you can't break a christmas promise!

I'm watching merry christmas drake and josh and it's really funny. but like most things drake and josh, it makes no sense. my day today was pretty hectic, but i got through it. it's pretty chilly right now, so i'm hoping it snows. it would just add to the allure of the ever increasing christmas lights popping up all over town.the two most beautiful places in town right now are the railroad green and fratello's. so festive!!
happy weekend everyone!



1) blasting music
2) potash and kerianne <3
3) snowflake pajama pants
4) christmas movies
5) weekends

I am the swamp monster!

I'm swamped! that's the reason for that clever but unfunny title. For tomorrow I have a vocab quiz, a poetry quiz (both in the same subject) a chemistry quiz, a math quiz and a global test. wow. but i'll just grin and bear it! no philosophical stuff tonight because my brain power is being used for memorization and such. so i'm just gonna skip right on down to the list. 'night!


1) peanut butter
2) forgiveness
3) good art pencils
4) blow pops
5) rainbows

tune me out if necessary

i know you're sick of it. and i'm sorry. but i just need to express this overwhelming love, respect and admiration for my favorite group of men. they're not even a band to me anymore. they make the most beautiful, inspiring, musically and lyrically incredible music. their sense of humor, their attitudes...i can't even really explain what they mean to me. please don't think i'm obsessed. it's kind of deeper than that. because i feel like i know them. <3(Frank, Gerard, Bob, Ray and Mikey) distribute the love.


thankfulness list:

1)cold weather
2)fireplaces
3)dark chocolate
4)naps
5)the band room

I wake up every evening with a big smile on my face

Human relationships are so intricate and fascinating. Like a web of delicate strands of emotions, relationships can be strong as lead one day, and seem to crumble before your eyes the next. A trait that you found endearing in a person just yesterday might take a toll on your nerves today. It's such a delicate balance, no matter how strong the relationship seems. You have to feel out the mental and emotional states of that person, find out what makes them tick, determine if they're prone to mood swings, etc. Relationships should really be classified as a fine art. It takes effort, emotional strength, trust, emotional intelligence and a certain amount of selflessness to form a concrete bond. But in terms of the people in my life, it's 10000% worth the effort.



Thankfulness List:

1) having a sister that can drive
2) chai tea
3) calendars to plan your life
4) study hall
5) christmas lights

Just a side note

it's really global FREEZING everyone. false alarm. so break out the ice picks and snow gloves! cause we're in for an ice age ;)

sometimes even the right is wrong

hi guys!

isn't it great to randomly learn things about yourself? for example: i learned that i enjoy a schedule, order, whatever you want to call it. I can't quite think of the word. As much as I may resist it in the form of school, doing things on a day to day basis keeps me level-headed. It's wonderfully relaxing to blog every night. Some other repetition? watching the tyra show everyday, reading before i go to bed, listening to music and changing my clothes as soon as i get home =)


Thankfulness List!

1) cultural diffusion (without it we wouldn't have hip hop or chinese food!)
2) My Chemical Romance
3) thick comforters...yumm
4) ice cream
5) God