it's a love story, baby just say yes

Now you're all going to think I'm bipolar. So I apologize for the confusion. But little things can change your perspective, as we all know. Things like a nice long talk with mom <3 or seeing your beautiful best friends make it through their lives. Or maybe just small things to look forward to. Or maybe writing a really meaningful poem, or experiencing a refreshing release. For me, I was fortunate to experience all of these. And now I'm content, if not happy. I hate to generalize life, because although I'm still young, I've learned that life is an open-ended question. And each person has their own answer, whether they know it or not. I still predict this will be a rough year. But I refuse to nail myself down to one area, whether it be academics, music whatever. Because I'm a multi-faceted person. My idea of fulfillment ranges from watching a great TV show to completing a really great sketch or nailing a trumpet piece, or even writing an excellent essay. I'm not meant to live life on a single and unwavering track. No one is. So yes, I'm still a consciencous student. I still study, even if its out of vogue, and I still care very much about my success as a student. But unlike in the past, I'm going to try not to feel guilty when I fawn over an outfit, or spend an hour or two listening to music or just take a nap so I can dream. These are the things, I realize, that make my life worth living, instead of just "getting through it all." There's so much more to come. I have dreams to dream and things to accomplish. I am so fortunate to have the friends and family that I do. And that statement is so overused that is loses some of its meaning. But I can assure you, I squeeze every amount of meaning out of it. I feel so proud, so happy to see my friends succeed and be happy. My family's love and support move me to tears. And so, when I have such spectacular people in my life, being unhappy would almost be like letting them down...