sometimes life comes and passes you by while you're busy making plans

happy long weekend! so right now i'm listening to beyonce and it's snowing and i just practiced and i need to write an essay but i don't particularly care. my weekend is going pretty well, the stress of midterms aside. I took my social day on friday to go see bride wars with jess. it was fun! i liked the movie even though it got really bad reviews. sometimes things work that way. saturday i had a study group which was....i won't say productive but it wasn't a total flop. i still have a lot of individual review to do. so basically tomorrow i have to squeeze in writing an essay, practicing, reviewing, a dentist appointment and buying clothes for drama. that should be fun!




1) talking to new people
2) beyonce
3) learning about people
4) sleeping late
5) long weekends

i think i'm in love with my radio

hey everyone! no one's really commenting, but it's ok cause i'm writing this for myself anyway. i had a great weekend; an out-and-about friday, a lazy saturday and a productive sunday. it was the perfect balance.

i'm currently reading marley and me. from the trailers i saw of the movie, it looked like a typical hollywood warm-your-heart story. but the book is so much more. it's a brilliantly written memoir of life with this uncontrollable and fiercely lovable dog, marley. the text follows marley's entire life, adding in elements of the author's life as well such as job opportunities, moving across the country and having children. i haven't finished the book, i'm quite near the end, and i find myself head over heels in love with marley because he is so in love with life. i've reached a very sad turning point, however, because marley is beginning to show signs of aging and although his spirit is as vibrant as ever, his body can't quite keep up. the author says, and i agree, that marley teaches him about his mortality. that even an on-the-go spirit like marley winds down eventually. i predict that the end will be heartbreaking, but i've enjoyed the journey immensely and i recommend it to everyone, pet owner or not.



1)the new beyonce CD
2)finding LOTMS
3)getting my ipod to work
4)snowstorms
5)having time to relax

no we're not gonna work this out tonight

hey guys! busy as usual. but there's always time for thanks!!


1) subs in french
2) my spectacular ringtone
3) painkillers
4) TV: stupid, yes, but it can be really relaxing
5) good books (as in the antithesis of invisible man)

astro zombies

1) my hair (for right now, anyway)
2) a beautiful christmas break
3) drama club
4) radio disney take-over!!
5) big jobro announcement!!!!!!

of music, parties and memories

Two of my best friends celebrated their sweet sixteen tonight...time is flying by. i'd love to catch it in a jar and keep it just the way it is, forever. this may sound cheesy but as we were dancing and singing to build me up buttercup, everyone's faces looked so happy and free and as i looked around, i saw old friends that i'm so happy i still have in my life. a few people that were in lakeside with us have long drifted from the group, but that's how life goes. those who remained are certified beautiful people. and i hope they stay with me forever, if only to drift on and off the path of my life. so tonight, i have much to be thankful for. you might think i'm crazy but up until now, for the past week or so, i was willing to trade my life for anyone's. anyone's in the world. i was so restless and frustrated. i felt pointless and hopeless. i found myself so disconnected from life and just genuinely unhappy. because my life seemed so small and i constantly saw people on TV, in magazines, who led such big lives. and i wanted to replicate their lives. but then i heard on the radio, someone say "i believe that everyday life is extraordinary" and i realized, it truly is. and so, for right now, i'm content. the lure of stage life, fame, whatever you want to call it, is still there. but instead of a nagging pressure, it's more of a dull pulse. because there are so many little things i take for granted that constitute a beautiful and worthwhile existence. and i can definitely handle that.


1)good friends playing great music late at night
2)growing up and out
3)being appreciative (i'm appreciative for being appreciative haha)
4)beautiful, often overlooked blessings like having a family to come home to, a school to go to(i know, i know) and horizons to work towards.
5)a heart heavy with joy

I'mma do the things i wanna do

I don't particularly feel like posting a legitimate blog post tonight so i'll just be all thankful.





1)rockband
2)things to look forward to
3)options
4)vacation
5)going out to dinner with my love =)

Christmas!

As expected, it's been a beautiful two days of christmas celebration. it's funny how as you get older, your outlook changes slightly every year. I wish i could say that the childlike wonder and innocence is still there but of course, as a product of the "teen years" it has dimmed slightly. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love Christmas and will continue to my whole life. But every year, your eyes open a little more. there are more distractions and thoughts buzzing inside of your head and, for me, i sometimes find it hard to be in the moment. nevertheless, i will always maintain the wonder and beauty of christmas in my heart. because what's life without christmas?

On christmas eve, we went down to my aunt and uncle's house in north caldwell NJ, which is always a great time. their house is beautiful, the food is good and, of course, you're around family. unfortunately, it was raining the whole trip down, which washed away most of the snow...it would have been beautiful to have fresh snow on the ground christmas morning. Since we're being thankful this season (really, it should be all the time) i'd like to express my thanks for my siblings. we argue. a lot. but we're also each other's lifelines, best friends and party buddies. if all else fails and we know no one at a party (which wasnt the case for this party), we stay close to each other and have fun amongst ourselves. we were taking crazy pictures and eating a lot and playing christmas trivia games with my crazy godmother/aunt. on the way home, we were getting tired. but midnight mass still loomed ahead of us. i absolutely love midnight mass. it is by far the most beautiful part about christmas, for me. because the church is silent, softly lighted, the altar is decorated with vibrant poinsettas. there aren't the distractions of gifts or secular things. father bob, our new priest, performed his first midnight mass and he did so well. getting home at 1:00 in the morning has become a christmas tradition. the upside is that it forces us to go right to bed so that santa can come ;)

christmas morning dawned 40 degrees and sunny. blech. but there was still a tiny bit of snow on the ground and the sky was a beautiful blue. so i couldn't complain. my brother woke me up, like always, but this year was frustrating because my mom chose to sing at the 8 am mass, so we, being good and patient children, waited until she got home to open presents (she likes to be there to see what "santa" brought) so the three of us partied in mariel's room until mom came home. as soon as she walked in, we sprinted downstairs. and santa treated us very very well. the beauty of christmas morning never looses it's spark for me. the lighted tree, the warm fireplace, the sun shining in the windows and the brightly colored wrapping paper. the material aspect is obviously not the most important, so i wont list what i received. lets just say we were all very happy =)

as also is tradtion, my grandparents and my aunt and uncle come to our house for christmas day. so we spent the beginning of the day preparing and cleaning. and once everyone showed up, the house looked beautiful, we had christmas music playing and the food was all set up. i absolutely love spending time with my family. we have so much fun together. of course, there were more presents ;) overall, the day was beautiful and i think we kept the christmas spirit very much alive. i love this post-celebration feeling of satisfaction.


my thankfulness list is extremely long, but i'll keep it to 5.

1) spending time with family
2) being happy
3) our cozy home
4) having the rest of the vacation to enjoy
5) the spirit of christmas

affirmative. i poked one. it was dead

1)snow days
2)supportive best friends
3)flight of the conchords on DVD
4)baking christmas cookies
5)snow day



thank you!

beautiful.

now THAT'S dedication <3333

here comes the luck of the draw!

i'm blogging now even though i'm not finished with what i have to do because..well, i feel like it. weather.gov has been checked so frequently by every student that i'm surprised it hasn't overloaded. just like everyone else, i would love a snow day. but, as usual, i'm setting myself up for a let down.


1) chai tea
2) slipper socks
3) phone coversations
4) expressing a thought
5) 8th period lessons

some joker put my smile on upside down

i feel rather accomplished, in spite of my breakdown. i was able to do the french homework, write a ballad, work on christmas presents, work on my portrait, update my ipod and (in a few minutes) study for math. i flexed my creative muscle quite a bit today, which i'm happy about. it's so stress relieving to express yourself through art or sometimes, a suicidal ballad =)
this is the home stretch guys!! one week, give or take two days (which hopefully will be stress free) until christmas break!!! i know i'm excited. since i'm clearly procrastinating, i'm going to leave you with a list. it's a nice close.



1) new music (the rumble strips)
2) mariel getting into college. congrats sis!
3) our decorated christmas tree =)
4) being productive
5) teachers postponing tests

still sick =(

i apologize, i will make up for my pitiful posts tomorrow


1) connecting with family
2) advent calendars
3) friends who stop by to check up on you =))
4) thinking its sunday when its really saturday
5) flirting ;)




good night!!

wanna know why i carry a knife?

this'll be a quickie cause its very late (in case the time thing isnt working, its 11:07)





1)SNOW DAYS
2)my sister
3)good morals
4)the dark knight
5)shopping

it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

I'm bracing myself for a disappointment. meaning either a two hour delay or a full day of school. that's what i'm thinking. cause right now its just plain raining. but im sick of talking about the weather. so i still have math to do. i've been slacking a little bit in terms of homework. and i'm kinda loaded for the next week.





1) being able to help friends
2) new, good music
3) fleece blankets
4) packages
5) my cell phone

you refuse to believe

if you haven't noticed i name my posts after the song i'm listening to at the time.

i decided to, for today, add a list of things i'm looking forward to. it'll help me get through the coming days



1) going to sleep
2) hanging out with becky on friday
3) getting a christmas tree on saturday
4) going christmas shopping
5) CHRISTMAS!!! obviously
6) kerianne and meghan's sweet 16

ughhhhh part two

as christmas is approaching, school is getting harder and harder to deal with. i like to call it the see-saw effect. don't even talk to me about the weather. it's sickening. plus, i didn't get the math WHATSOEVER, a nice cherry topping to the failure of a quiz i took today. I really dislike not understanding the concepts. it makes me feel like i wasn't paying attention. but i was, she just didn't teach it. as usual. also, i'm getting sick and i still haven't come to terms with the fact that i'm a massive chunk. so this will be a pretty scruffy list.



1) Taylor Swift
2) chapstick
3) study hall
4) the fact that we got the Dark Knight from netflix
5) a light homework load

ughhhhh

yeah so not everyone is keeping up with their daily posts! not that i have nothing else to do and i do this purely for enjoyment, but once i commit to something like this, i have to do it every day haha

i have SUCH a massive headache and tonight has been a really bad homework night. i didn't finish the last math problem, i can't finish the chem lab cause im missing my periodic table, i'm planning to copy the french from someone, and i need to transfer my reading journal into my actual journal. stupendous! i'm not dropping the ball or anything...

I can't keep track of everything i have to do!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrr



1) Advil
2) peanut butter and apples
3) Jess <33
4) hot showers
5) Scrubs

i need a snow day!

since i didn't leave you with a list, i'll give you one now



1) extended deadlines
2) E! news
3) sweatshirts
4) doughnuts
5) double-spacing



i REALLY want/need a snow day!!!!!

blah blah blah

hi everyone. this isn'y my official daily post, meaning you can expect one later, but i need to get out what's been festering inside me for a good portion of the day. i'd first like to apologize for my little meltdown today, cause that's all it was. i really try to avoid making a scene like that. I'm not completely uptight. i can handle a bad grade every once in a while. but i have a hard time handling a bad grade after i studied and stayed after, which was the case with this chem quiz. not to mention, i have a slight history of less than admirable grades in that particular class. i know i'm not dumb. but i have to say, the more logical subjects (i.e. math, chemistry) don't sit well with my brain. precisely why i am going into the english field. the quiz got me but also, the fates of the universe (even though i fought adamently against the existence of such powers while in english) caused me to forgot how to do the last question on the math quiz. which just reinforced this intellectual inadequacy in my mind. thanks to my great friends, (jess, kerianne, cristina and christian <33) i'm ok =)

here comes the bride...

the elusive christa shows her face!! congratulations guys =))


alicia is really cool